Manatee

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A & T

It's nice to feel appreciated and trusted.

Sign your name - Tibet

Sign here if you don't agree with the way that China mistreats Tibet and it's people. Even YOU have time to do that! Name and city.

As if I didn't exist

Odd, very odd. Every morning a colleague and I have had the same routine, saying hi in the bus, walking to the front door, chatting a little and a few minutes later see each other again in the dressing room and continue the chatting there.

The other day she didn't see (?) me on the bus. Getting of the bus she started walking very fast, not turning my way once. Entering the front door without the usual "see you in a bit" and in the locker room she sat with her back towards me the entire time she got her things in order to start working (about 1,5 meters away from me) and quickly leaving the room, still not having said one word or acknowledged my existence in any other way. I thought for myself that maybe she has been crying and didn't want to show me her red eyes so I didn't say anything.

At lunch she sat talking and laughing with another colleague. Later in the locker room I asked her with a cheerful voice "So you have stopped ignoring me now?" and she replied "yepp" and nothing more. The following day the same thing happened again but when I came down to the locker room I asked her "Have I done anything to you? Are you mad at me since you ignore me?". She, almost a little irritated, answered that she just had some personal issues to think of and didn't feel like having any company. I told her that that is ok but that she shouldn't ignore me since it was perceived as a bit rude, making me think that I had done something to her.

If someone wants to make me confused, insecure and/or furious, the best way is to ignore me. I find that extremely RUDE. In this care I just wondered what had happened, feeling confused since I am not very close to my colleague and therefor don't care that much. When it comes to people that I do know better, family or friends, I take it very personally and get very angry if someone ignore me. It has happened to me from time to time. Some people seem to think that their problem will go away by not pretending it is there. One person said straight to my face that he doesn't bother to answer when he doesn't think that the person (in this case me) has nothing of interest to him to say (sometimes not even knowing what it might be about). Another just was quiet and didn't respond to my attempt to contact, finally realizing that we had to talk. To me, ignoring people is a way of sending the signal that "you are not even worth my time, please go away" and/or "I don't want you to know what the situation is actually about".

Bandit

Yes, very good music there at www.bandit.se and then click "Webbradio" in the upper left corner. I know, I know, the chance of any of you actually doing so is slim and even slimmer that you will continue listening to it ;-) I know, I am used to it, never listening to the same music as the people around me (almost no one) (as I have said before). The music is still good though :-)

Nigger

by Clawfinger from the album Deaf Dumb Blind.



This is also one of my favorite albums and "Nigger" is my favorite song on it. I learned the lyrics by heart all those years ago.

goddamn my man you see I can't understand
why you wanna say nigger to your brother man
talking back pride then you call yourself a nigger
don't bring yourself down cos it just don't figure
take a look at yourself and your history
you don't look like a goddamn nigger to me
it's a negative word and the white man made it
gave you a name to dominate and trade it
making blood money of his very own race man
and all of this beacause
the colour of your face man
Nigger, Nigger, Nigger, Nigger
placed and educated in a neighbourhood of crime
taught from the beginning that you weren't worth time
liqour-store and gunstore next to one another
with only one purpose so you all kill each other
leaving one less problem to worry about
that's the way they do it this is how it turns out
and justice for all with the American goverment
I wanna know where all the goddamn money went
we didn't see it and it didn't do no good
I guess you couldn't give a fuck about a black neighbourhood
Nigger, Nigger, Nigger, Nigger
Nigger you're the real niggers, you're the real niggers,
you're the real niggers, you're the real niggers
there's always gonna be fanatical minorities
the Ku Klux Klan and fucked up authorities
conservative cunts and religious preachers
I don't care cos they ain't our teachers
living a life they say is free from sin
then they judge another person by the colour of their skin
I feel ashamed of myself I'm a white human being
surrounded by suckers to afraid to be seeing
they ain't such a thing called superior race
and there ain't nothing special 'bout the colour of your face
you've got a one way ticket to a dead end street
the pressure is on so feel the heat
media pollution is a very bad sollution
hypocritical hype is your only contribution
so leave us alone and give your brothers some space
cos you're a lousy contribution to the human race
Nigger, Nigger,.....

Jesus had a pitbull

It's true! I have evidence. Not that I am going to show you but I can assure you that I have hard evidence :-)

Amazing Annie Leibovitz

I was just watching a program about her and her work and it is amazing. She is such a a good photographer and has worked for both Rolling Stones and Vanity Fair.

"Never Seen the Light of Day"

by Mando Diao.
It is a Swedish group that I usually don't listen to at all but this song I really like.

The Swedish WORD IKEA

An American doing business in Sweden. I asked what words he'd learned in Swedish and the answer was "IKEA" haha...

Sicko

I am talking about myself. I am tired of being sick so often, it's not like me. My nose, my head, my throat, my body...all doing their best to annoy me.

"They say you marry your father"

Hmm...interesting theory. That's all I have to say about that.

I am not a Beastie Boy girl

...but I kind of like this one, "Intergalactic". I saw the video quite a few times when I lived in Mexico some years ago and it mostly the memories it triggers that makes me like it. MTV played it quite often and I had a period when I still didn't have a more developed social life, at least not in the evenings so I spent my time watching TV. The TV room was a small room on the second floor. A wardrobe, carpet and a small sofa where the main things I can remember from that room.